A soldier I will be

Super failed wink. Okcan.

Helloeverybodywhoreadsmyblog. Actually I only know of two people who reads it, but I think there are more so hello to all you unknown readers!

The clock has striked 12 and therefore it is Sunday. The last day of the weekend and thus there is school tmrw. Ohyay. School hours are long and tiring but I'm not complaining, I'm happy to be where I am. I'm happy with my school, my friends, my class and yeah I'm basically happy with my life right now. Eh no, I'm not happy with how I can't do my Math. K but whatever, I'll get help.

So, I've been going home late almost everyday this week. I end lessons at 6pm on mon and tues on even weeks. Just saying.

 Anywho, I met J on friday. kekekeke. He lent me his sweater to use in school! I don't plan on returning it to him though. Yay new sweater for me. Idc if it's for men, it fits me, I like it and it has your smell so I'm keeping it! Yeahhhhhh. It's kind hard for us to meet with my busy schedule. -Inserts a thousand sad faces-

Wait for my A's to end and we can spend all the time in the world tgt ok!

XOXO.

Another week down

Oh hello there. Another week of my JC life has passed! It has barely begun and it's already rather tiring. Timetable for this semester, which is next week onwards is super H E C T I C. I've not really gotten use to writing, absorbing, listening and looking at ppt slides all at once. LOL multitasking at it's best.

Ohyeah, met up with Jose and Glen on Wednesday! Had lunch. Stoned at MRT station. Didnt do anything much but still great to see em. Now my timetable is so packed and I'm gna end quite late everyday, I hope I'll still be able to meet them at least once in two weeks.

Lastly, I'm gna go row a dragonboat tmrw! I actually regretted signing up for it when I found out we have to be there at 730AM. Da fuq right. But ah what the heck, it's like a once in a lifetime experience. Lotsa people say it's fun too so why not try eh. I'll replenish my sleep when I get back from rowing ze boat. kekeke.

Ok, that's all. This week has been especially happy for me. I KNOW YOU KNOW WHY.

Forever and always

I have like all these feelings inside of me but I dont know how to put them in words. Okay, I'll try.

First of all, J and I are talking again. Yayayayay.

We webcammed yesterday like after... ages. I haven't seen him for like so long and it felt really good to see him again, really missed him these past few weeks.

Aiyaaaa wtf I shall just cut the crap and stop beating about the bush.

Hi Jose, I know life's been pretty tough for you of late but don't give up okay. Just think of all the positives and stop being so negative! It's not nice to see you sad yknow. ): Try to conquer all your problems okay, I know it's easier said than done but you gotta try! Yeah and I know you know I'll always be here for you, I'm just a text/phonecall away! So, if you ever do need anyone to talk to... you know where to find me. I'll make time for you, no matter how busy I might be. Whatever decision you make, friend/boyfriend, I want you in my life.

Tmd, you better be smiling when you read this.

<333333333333.

Late TGIF post

Finally met up with Bffffff and Glen on Friday. Hanged at Nex for awhile before I had to had back to school. Here's a gif I stole from Bffffff's blog!

It was really nice to see them again. Can't meet them till like two weeks later because bffffff is going KL. Sobzxc.

SR picnic and movie under the stars:

The whole college gathered at the field for a picnic and to watch Toy story 3 on the huge screen they put up. It was kinda fun, especially when we played murderer. The movie was boring though, only because I watched it so many times. Actually throughout the whole event, I was missing my friends. It'd be so much funner if 4e2 was there. Well, this is life. We all have to part someday. Hopefully I'd get used to the JC environment soon eh.

Give me my bed

I havent updated this space in quite a while. Well, just some things that have been happening in my life. If you read my tweets, you would've found out I got into SRJC. Tuesday which was the last day of orientation was my first day in that school! That makes today my third day and I'm already so worn out. ><

But I'll work hard, it wasn't easy for me to get myself a spot there so yeah gna cherish it.

Work hard and get promoted, my aim for this year!

I miss my friends and 4e2 so much, I guess I'm not used to the new environment yet. I also haven't break out of my shell yet. My classmates must think I'm some quiet person, wait till they see the real me eh.

Sigh. I really wish I could see all my friends again. I can see Bffffff and Glenneh tmrw before I head back to school at like 530 for SR picnic and movie under the stars. LOL what stars you tell me.

Wish me luck in my life in JC, ain't gna be easy. 

Aite, needa research for gp test tmrw. Update again when I have time. I don't even know who reads my blog, my viewers are increasing though. hehe.

Still the same

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A week has passed but nothing has changed. I still miss you, I'm still confused, I still hope we'd talk and above all else I still have feelings for you. Yes, I am trying to let go but it isn't easy. I allowed myself to fall deep in love with you because I know I meant a lot to you but now I'm having such a hard time. I keep thinking back over, things we both said. When you told me how important I was to you, how you didn't wanna lose me. I know you meant them. What happened?

Why do people have to change and why do feelings have to fade?

I keep thinking about everything we've been through and I can't get you out of my head.

Yes, I know this is bad.

I'm blogging this at night so I apologise for being so dramatic, I tend to be sadder and think more at night.

I just wanna know why you changed all of a sudden. Okay, I am still in a state of denial. But do I mean nothing to you at all now?

My final chance

I have officially been rejected by all the JCs I appealed to, but hey this isn't over. Well, not just yet. My parents and I still have one trick up our sleeve and we're waiting for what could be the most important phone call of my life. If it's successful, welcome me to the srjc club. If it's not, temasek poly here I come.
Pretty please, at least give me a chance.

This pic so cute you can die, I know.

hahahahahhahaha.

OHYEAH, 

I created tumblr yesterday! Now I know why everyone says it's addictive. It really is.

Check it out!

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Brighter than the sun

Well, I'm done being unhappy. It's not like I have no food, water, a place to live in, family or friends.

I shouldn't make it seem like my life is over. Of course, I've still not fully recovered but I'm on the road to recovery. I have Tpjc auditions today, wish me luck eh! I really need to get myself a spot in a JC. The only person who feels me is Kenny. I hope he gets into a JC too. Yeah I like kids but I don't think I can be much in the future with the course I'm posted too.

Got all my documents ready, song prepared. Hmm what else do I need. Ouhyeah, a shit load of confidence and answers they wanna hear.

From today, 1st Feb 2012... I will stop being sad about my past. Well, I will try to. :D Maybe months later when you wanna talk again, we can catch up or smth eh?

I dont wna lose a friend just because I lost my boyfriend.

Enough of all the negativity.

I guess I'll be happy if you're happy. (:

-insert wriggly bunny-